I'm convinced that we jinxed it... or maybe I spoke too soon or what. I don't know but the unexpected happened. The unthinkable perhaps but not totally impossible...

One more person to my list... that makes 8 people now. Poor Bangg♥y.

What am I talking about? Here you go.








It's just heartbreaking.

See my previous post: http://mymaria.multiply.com/journal/item/230

I was expecting some nice MMS when I received one from MarkE today. But alas, it is but sad, sad news. He said he was just walking today... when THIS HAPPENED!!!

So... brace yourself for this!!!


Doesn't it just send shivers down your spine??? Man, those one-year-old Havies sure have seen better days!

Golly. He's like the 2nd person I know whose straps broke(?), uhhh what's the word? [ Hi, joneza!!! ] Well, maybe she can better explain how hers has also been laid to rest. Tee hee!

Oh well, moving on. Time to buy new ones!

Among all my Havies, it's the Brasils that are undeniably the softest. No doubt about it! Take it from me.



This slip-on thong has a molded rubber upper with a Havaianas flag badge, a shock absorbing multi-tone striped midsole and a durable rubber outsole for a steady step. Whether you're poolside or racing through the grocery store, the Brasil will keep you light on your feet all season long. (According to Amazon! But I concur!!!)

And guess what?

This time, I got a size 37/38!!! *sigh* I can't seem to fit into the 35/36 Brasils... Hmm.. I wonder.



Go get your Brasil cream pair now!!!

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⋆✌㋡⋆ 陳美西

It’s a vicious cycle! For almost a decade it has been my question as to why people drink and then later regret having done so… and yet still drink again. Maybe it’s your question, too. It’s everybody’s question I guess. Tonight, I had the delight of getting a whiff of the sweet smell of brandy and being intoxicated as well. It had been a good month since my last swig of alcohol and it should have been a New Year’s resolution, had it not been broken tonight. And so here I am, after only 3 hours of shut eye, awaken by hunger and thirst. Or maybe it was Banggoy that woke me up. I don’t know. The spirit has not left me even after a bowl of instant noodles and a sip of Coke.

The Chinese channel is on TV right now and the more I can’t think straight with all the foreign language chatter. Why not turn it off? Because it’s almost 4 a.m. and I’m too chicken shit to be here at my work station in dead silence. So where was I?

What I’m really going to write is this. The reason why I drink is not because I’m depressed, cannot sleep easily, or am really an alcoholic. (Take that Lindsay Lohan!) I drink to be intoxicated… For the mere pleasure of a head-spinning intoxication. I love rhum. I adore brandy. I crave for absinthe. And I wallow in good old beer. Yes, that’s the spirit. And I must admit; it really helps to sleep faster for someone who has to count backwards from 500 down just to doze off to Slumber Land. So you see, getting drunk has its perks. But alas, for someone who has not mastered the art of drinking, will have to suffer the consequences. That being a mother-loving hangover. Even though I might call myself a “seasoned drinker”, I still stock up on Gatorade. For even the skilled of all drinkers, succumbs to dehydration. (Tip: Consuming alcohol after a heavy meal is less likely to produce visible signs of intoxication than consumption on an empty stomach.) I have also learned not to indulge in any king of seafood for pulutan.

How do I deal with hangover? Drink moderately. As my grandfather and mom always say, "Prevention is better than cure." I drink and let it settle in my stomach, and not let it go to my head. I think that’s the very reason why people get into all sorts of trouble when they get drunk. They let the spirit control them. Obviously, they haven’t mastered the art. I’m no whiz at this but, certainly, I have the acumen to be decent enough. Well, enough to get my ass home and to bed safely. Heck! No matter how soused I am, I do make it a point to brush my teeth… even if it means I have to crawl to the sink. And just in case the hangover gets me when I wake up, it’s wise keeping in mind that a lot of caffeine will get me through it. (Read: An ice cold Coke will do!) What I can’t figure out is how to get that awful (after) taste when you’ve had too much hard liquor. It’s that kind of taste that makes me feel like I’m a fire-breathing dragon for an entire day. And as much as I don’t want to say it, alcohol doesn’t just make me feel like crap but it really makes me crap a shitload. How gross is that? Well, piss off! Why are you *still* reading this anyway?

Now don’t envision me as your regular tambay who starts drinking at a sari-sari store in the middle of an afternoon. Well, I can be if you want but I can drink socially, too. Although, I prefer to drink at home where the toilet doesn’t resemble a pool of puke. Eeeuu… That’s really not something I want to talk about. YUCK!

That just reminded me of the times I’ve been wasted. The times when I would swear NEVER AGAIN will I be under the influence. The times where… Okay, that’s a different story now. I guess I’ll write about that some other time. And if there’s one thing worth celebrating while living in this ***-forsaken country, it is that fact that there is no legal age to booze it up. Hell, yeah! Cheers to that!

⋆✌㋡⋆ 陳美西

For comparison (documentation) purposes…

July 2007

Things change… and people, too. Ha ha!

January 2008

I miss home. ^_^

DO THE SHUFFLE!
Instructions:
1. Put your MP3 player on shuffle mode.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title (and artist,
maybe a line or two, and then some
comments) as the answer to the
question even if it doesn’t make
sense. No cheating, please!
*******

1. How are you feeling right now?
Why can't I - Liz Phair
♪ Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you.. ♫
COMMENT: Very self-explanatory!

2. What have you been thinking of the past few days?
Things We Don't Need Anymore - Jenny Owen Youngs
♪ I'm choking back all my tears again
I won't last through the year again
Without you... Here's two wishes that'll never come true ♫
COMMENT: 恭禧發財!!!

3. What could tomorrow have in store for you?
Stand Tall - Dirty Heads
♪ So I stand tall, it gets a little better ♫
COMMENT: I try to live one day at a time, and I'm doing the best I can. So if you're gonna die tomorrow... WHY NOT TODAY!?!? (lol!)

4. How is your relationship with your best friends these past few days?
(The Dutchess) Clumsy - Fergie
♪ Can't help it..
The girl can't help it.. You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love... ♫
COMMENT: Wenni!!! IT PARK KUNO! hahaha

5. How do strangers see you?
Waitin' For You - Lil Crazed
♪ Wherever, whatever you do... I will be right here waitin' for you ♫
COMMENT: I guess, people think I'm very patient. Haha!

6. How do your best friends see you?
See you again - Miley Cyrus
♪The last time I freaked out,
I just kept looking down,
I st-st-stuttered when
You asked me what I'm thinkin' bout
Felt like I couldn't breathe
You asked what`s wrong with me
My best friend Lesli said
"Oh she's just being Miley"

The next time we hang out,
I will redeem myself
My heart it can rest till then,
Whoa whoa I,
I can't wait to see you again ♫
COMMENT: I wanna be HANNAH MONTANA! Seriously. I'm a frustrated pop (tart) star.

7. How do your parents see you?
Maria - Kim Ah Joong
♪ Maria, Ave Maria 저 흰 구름 끝까지 날아 juh heen goorum ggeutggahjee nalah
Maria, Ave Maria 거친 파도 따윈 상관없지 guhchin ppahdo ddahween ♫
COMMENT: Yes, I listen to Korean music (versions).

8. What could have been the song that played the minute you were born?
Meri Lewa - Oshen
♪ Meri lewa mi save misim yu tru.. Na mi wari wari tumas lo yu.. Longpela taim mi no kisim wanpela leta.. bai mi mekim wanem nau, sapos. Yu lusim mi bai mi indai olgeta ♫
COMMENT: And I listen to Hawaiian music, too! Yes, I am an island girl. ^_^

9. What could have been the song that
played while you were living through
high school?
Who am I to say - Hope
♪ Don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you love me ♫
COMMENT: Yeah, puppy loves. Haha! So high school.

10. What was it like when you first
fell in love?
Stuck on you - Ekolu
♪ Stuck on you.. I've got this feelin down deep in my soul that I just can't lose.. ♫
COMMENT: How very appropriate! Plus this is a reggae version.

11. What was it like when you first fell out of love?
Man Eater - Nelly Furtado
♪ She's a Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cords
Wish you never ever met her at all! ♫
COMMENT: 'Nuff said. Moving on...

12. What was you life like five years ago?
Don't Dream It's Over - Oshen
♪ Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win ♫
COMMENT: I had dreams alright.. and I let nobody stop me. ^_^

13. What's your life gonna be like five years from now?
When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne
♪  I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you ♫
COMMENT:  I can't help it.. I'm posting the whole song! *sigh*

14. What keeps you up at night?
Waiting For You - Seal
♪ There has been no one brighter than you
I can't deny these things that I do
Feels like the world's at stake 'cause
I have been waiting
I have been waiting for you ♫
COMMENT: Yeah, I keep waiting for Banggoy to get home! Come on...

15. What is the first thing that comes to your mind when you wake in the morning?
Say It Right - Nelly Furtado
♪ Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
Do you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me ♫
COMMENT: The song sets the mood... all the time.

16. What could the weekend have in store for you?
Wedding Day - Seal (duet with Heidi Klum)
♪ In my heart, a place, and it's all for you,
A most special place, and it's all for you,
And it's all for you,
You're my girl,
You're my heaven, you're my world ♫
COMMENT: I guess I need to spend quality time with Banggoy.

17. What is your "love life" like right now?
Pocketful of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield
♪ I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.
Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away. ♫
COMMENT: Yes, I have Banggoy... and that's all that matters.

18. This "object of your affection," how does he/she really see you?
Chasing Pavements - Adele
♪ I've made up my mind
dont need to think it over
if im wrong i am right
dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love...

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there  ♫
COMMENT: Ask Banggoy. Tee hee!

19. Is there ever going to be a future between you and him/her?
Love is Free - Sheryl Crowe
♪ Oh everybody
Devil take your money
My money's got no hold on me
Oh oh everybody's making love cause love is free ♫
COMMENT: So you see...Love is free. :) Bahala'g saiging.. basta loving!!!

20. If you could rewrite the way you met him/her, how would you like it to go?
That's Amore - James Marden
♪ When the moon hits you eye like a big pizza pie
That's amore
When the world seems to shine like you've had too much wine
That's amore
Bells will ring ting-a-ling-a-ling, ting-a-ling-a-ling
And you'll sing "Vita bella"
Hearts will play tippy-tippy-tay, tippy-tippy-tay
Like a gay tarantella ♫
COMMENT: See? I'm in love. 'Nuff said.

21. What do you like most about him/her?
Touch me - Heidi Montag
♪ But you got me feelin' so naughty
Make me wanna show you my body
Make you wanna take it all off me
I can't wait no more ♫
COMMENT: Waaaahhh... so kinky. Ha ha ha!!!

22. Have you ever lost a love to a best friend?
Your Love - Katy Perry
♪ I know you know my boyfriend is outta town
So have a drink, let’s talk it over
So many things I shouldn’t be sayin’ now
You know I like my boys a little bit older

I just wanna use your love tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight ♫
COMMENT: Nah.. samot! Why don't we say instead...  have you ever "loved" your best friend? (LoL!)

24. Is there a place you'd rather be than where you are right now?
Everything I Own - Oshen
♪ I would give anything I own
Give up my life, my heart, my home
I would give ev'rything I own
Just to have you back again ♫
COMMENT: So I guess not.. I'm happy where I am right now. I'm not about to change ANYTHING.

25. What's gonna cause you so much pain?
4 in the morning - Gwen Stefani
♪ I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right ♫
COMMENT: It pains me how much love I give and it doesn't work out right. :(

26. What's gonna make you extremely happy?
Ever Ever After -  Carrie Underwood
♪ Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favourite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too

Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away ♫
COMMENT: Yes, I long for happy ending. (Who doesn't?)

27. What do you sing in the shower?
Immigrant Song - Led Zeppelin
♪ Ah, ah,
We come from the land of the ice and snow,
from the midnight sun where the hot springs blow.
The hammer of the gods
Will drive our ships to new lands,
To fight the horde, singing and crying:
Valhalla, I am coming!
On we sweep with threshing oar,
Our only goal will be the western shore. ♫
COMMENT: It's the "Aaahhhh" that gets me everytime. Hehe!

28. What do you sing when it rains?
What I Am - Edie Brickell
♪ I'm not aware of too many things
I know what I know if you know what I mean //
What I am is what I am, are you what you are or what ♫
COMMENT: You have to be me.. to understand me.

29. Do people secretly lust after you?
Me and You - Fall Out Boy
♪ Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you ♫
COMMENT: I know *you* want me! Tee hee!

30. What's the song that comes to your mind when you see an old couple holding hands?
Beautiful Girls Reply - Jojo
♪ I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do ya dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over ♫
COMMENT: Get an ugly woman as your wife? Lol... It's pretty tough when you're old(er) because your partner may want a "younger" woman. Ka fest!

31. What's the song that comes to your mind when you bump into an enemy?
Rockstar - Hannah Montana
♪ I'm unusual
Not so typical
Way too smart to be waiting around
Tai chi practicing
Snowboard champion
I could fix the flat on your car
I might even be a rock star

If you only knew the real me
I might even be a rock star
I'm telling you that we are meant to be
Now wouldn't it be nice if you could see
I really am a rock star♫
COMMENT: I will always be unpredictable... and you can never be me.

32. What's the song that comes to your mind when you bump into your high school friends?
You're Crashing, But You're No Wave - Fall Out Boy
♪ Case open, case shut,
But you could pay to close it like a casket.
Baby boy can't lift his headache head.
Isn't it tragic? (Whoaaa-ooo.) ♫
COMMENT: I don't wanna talk about it.

33. Do you think your life has meaning?
Fame - Fall Out boy
♪ I am God’s gift but why would he bless me with
Such wit without a conscience equipped
I’m addicted to the way I feel when I think of you, woah
"There's too much green to feel blue"

When I’m home alone I just can’t stop myself
And you pull my head so close volume goes with the truth
Signing off "I’m alright in bed but I’m better with a pen"♫
COMMENT: I found the meaning of life... years ago, but I forgot to write it down. I still have a loooooong way to go. So I can't say for now.

34. Are you ever going to live happily ever after?
Bad Day - Daniel Powter
♪ Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day ♫
COMMENT: I will... But that's no guarantee that it will run smooth. I do accept challenges.

35. What song is most likely to play at your funeral?
Golden - Fall Out Boy
♪ How cruel is the golden rule?
When the lives we lived are only golden-plated
And I knew that the lights of the city were too heavy for me
And though I carried karats for everyone to see

And I saw God cry in the reflection of my enemies
And all the lovers with no time for me
And all of the mothers raised their babies
To stay away from me

And pray they don't grow up to be... ♫
COMMENT: Need I say more?



...Now it's your turn!!! Dap, are you there?

⋆✌㋡⋆ 陳美西

Wonder Woman: No one can resist the golden lasso. It binds all who are encircled and compels them to tell... the truth!

And no one can resist the WW Gold Stars...

Thanks to Rainey for the size 35/36. My feet have shrunk(?).

What used to be a size 37/38 is now a 35/36! (LoL!)

I was driving yesterday and I saw this.



Unsay NO GAS? Way gasolina??? Naa diay na? Shouldn't it be the name of the taxi company written in there or just TAXI like this one:




O diba? Dili man sad NOGAS ang name sa taxi when I looked at the company name at the door... hahaha only in d pilipins!

Published in EV Mail, February 26, 2004.

I don’t know if it’s because it’s February or if I was bitten by the love bug, but I truly feel like I have to impart the message that Venus (or Aphrodite) has enlightened me. Anyhow, either I just have had too much of that love-whatchamacallit over the Valentine weekend or I’m just fed up with conversations on the subject of finding “the right one”. For the unattached it is certainly an interesting topic and I think I might as well write something about it for future reference. Seriously, I’ve had a lot of musing lately.

In fact, LOVE is not what you think it is. Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last. Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life. Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined.

When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us. We say this phrase "you are the most wonderful gift from God I have ever received..." After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say "You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life!!!" Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?

Frankly, nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love promises like "forever, till death do us apart, blah blah blah…" would end up "We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!" Many times we think, after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degrees, that "S/He isn’t the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come." But the big question anyone could not answer is, "Is s/he the right one?" and "When is the right time?" Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the answer.

I have learned not to rush into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. For singletons like me, you need to try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship.

You're right, there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made. If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell for the rest of your life.

It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Believe me. Just try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.

We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity. We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We misunderstood, it’s just that we're too much dependent on them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken, it’s just insecurity.

But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy nor beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come. It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.

My bestfriend once told me that "finding the right person is very hard and very wrong... it is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there. You'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you... and don't rush things because somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you." Then I said to myself unconvincingly, “You’ve got to be kidding me! I can’t wait forever! I’ll be old…and lonely.”

So when another good friend of mine lent me a book titled ‘When God Writes Your Love Story’, I told myself while shrugging my shoulders, “Oh well, how hard can it be?” From the book I learned that you can never be perfect...the person you love can never be perfect...but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers, and your love can be perfect through the both of you. But, no relationship is complete without God...that's why we have marriage -- it's a bond not only between you and your loved one but also with God. All we need to do is give the pen to him and let him write our love stories. It won’t be easy, though, because He will make the choices for us. But with Him, nothing could go wrong.

I think that our relationships fail not because s/he's not the right person, it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own. Let God do the work. You may call it waiting time. But while you are waiting...pray. Let God guide you always. He knows better. No, He knows best.
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See previous blog entry: http://mymaria.multiply.com/journal/item/46/F_U_C_K_Vday